Day One: A Meaningful Imprint
Day One: In the Introduction of #YouAreEnough, I talk about my “Enough” tattoo and why it was important to me to have this word imprinted on my wrist. Talk about a tattoo you have that is meaningful to you…or if you don’t have any tattoos, the tattoo you would get if you were going to get one.
Since I’ve already shared the story behind my “Enough” tattoo, I thought I would share the story of another tattoo I get in the book, my “Let It Be” tattoo on my foot.
It was a matching tattoo I got with three of my girlfriends on a weekend kayaking trip. You know…one of those trips that ends up being one for the books. Here’s an excerpt from You Are Enough that explains why it was important for me to have those three words imprinted on my foot and my heart forever…
“When I was going through my social media archives to refresh my memories about kayaking weekend so I could write this chapter, I was struck by the smile on my face in the pictures and videos. That smile wasn’t there for the longest time. For a little while I thought it might never be there again. I thought to myself how I wished I could turn back the clock a few months and go tell that Mandy that her smile isn’t going to be missing forever. I wish I could tell her to hang in there…because happy, silly, carefree moments are going to come again. I wish I could tell her to keep pushing and fighting and showing up to her life and doing the hard work every day, because eventually everything that’s shifting on the inside will show up on the outside. Eventually the darkness will give way to the light. I wished I could tell her that there will be moments ahead that take her breath away from the sheer beauty instead of the sheer pain.
I wished I could tell her that losing herself was just another step to finding herself. I wished I could tell her that she was ENOUGH, just as she was then, and she would continue to be enough, even if she never changed a thing.
But I couldn’t. I can’t go back in time. What I can do is choose to smile and dance on and look back at all versions of me with fondness and gratitude that I am ever shifting, ever changing, ever evolving—and recognize how glorious the ebb and flow of life is, indeed.
At the beginning of this journey, I declared my “enough-ness” with a tattoo on my wrist. And now it was time to accept that enough-ness, and let it be. Let where I had been be. Let who and what I had lost be. Let my former life be. My new life may not be perfect, I may not be perfect – but it was enough. I was enough.
I was completely, totally, at peace with my “humanness.”
Lord knows I struggle and flounder and wander aimlessly at times. I fight to become the woman I’m meant to be and I fight against letting go of the woman I used to be all at the same time. I make mistakes and question everything and walk in anxiety far more often than I walk in faith…
But I love big and I love hard and I am fiercely loyal and crazy passionate and if I’m riding with you, you’ve got a ride or die friend FOR LIFE.
I bring the broken and sweaty and messy and imperfect because that’s exactly what this life is: broken and sweaty and messy and imperfect.
I’m gorgeously human.
Flawed and fabulous.
And I am ENOUGH.
You are enough.
It’s time for us to accept that.
Let It Be.”
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