Getting Uncomfortable in 2014: My God Adventure, Continued.
It seemed like a good prayer at the time. I’m not sure WHY it seemed like a good idea at the time, since my friend Anetra gave me the idea and told me that prayer turned her whole world and year upside down when she said it back in 2006. But I’m stubborn and sometimes I have to learn things for myself. (Actually, most times I have to learn things for myself.)
So I fervently prayed that prayer during my quiet time one night. And then watched as all hell proceeded to break loose in my life.
Wow, is He ever working on me. All of my big issues: Control. Trust. Impatience. Pride. Even learning how to keep my mouth shut when someone posts a heinous and offensive political ad on Facebook. He’s stretching me and challenging me and showing me things about myself that are not even a little bit pleasant. They’re the opposite of pleasant. They’re what green slimy goo shooting out of the creepy Exorcist girl’s ears on that old scary movie are made of.
Since the new year, God has called me to a new level of trust in Him. In every last area of my life. And I’ve fought Him on it every inch of the way. Yet still, He continues to call me into situations where I have nothing to cling to but Him. No way to control the situation, as my former TV producer and type A control freak self likes to do. All I can do is do all I can do…then completely, entirely, wholly surrender to Him. And is it ever scary, and uncomfortable, and even overwhelming.
But isn’t that what a truly sold out Christian walk is supposed to be? Overwhelming? A little terrifying? A walk on the wild and beautiful and brave side? Where nothing is certain…but everything is possible?
“Get uncomfortable this year, Mandy”…I heard Him whisper into my heart one night about a month ago.
Here I am, God. I’m uncomfortable. And I’m a little afraid. And uncertain. And messy. And imperfect. And a little wrecked.
But I am LIVING. And growing. And changing. And becoming.
On an adventure with the God of the Universe.
And ready for whatever comes next.
Have you ever been on a “God adventure”? What areas are you being challenged in right now as you stretch and grow in 2014? Sound off in the comments below!